My unexpected funhouse ^_^

      So if I haven't said it before, I love the idea of being tied up a lot! I've never actually gotten the opportunity to be physically tied up but hypnotically I've been and it has been awesome. It's probably related to the lack of control and submissiveness on my part. Having the feeling of not being able to move (unless absolutely necessary)...feeling absolutely helpless is just mmmmmm. It would be nice to have it described what's hypnotically holding me in place though. I might stay in place more if I had a mental picture to work with being restricted possibly. I would probably be inclined to think of rope (hopefully purple rope) when it comes to imagining what to be tied up with. Also a lot of teasing related with my lack of options to try and escape and being helpless. I hope it leads to ideas on other things eventually.      Of course (in my head anyway) thoughts of being to tied up lead to thoughts of collars and other things like a little impact play (a

     Submission (and any synonym of it) is a difficult thing to define for any individual. I personally am not even close to grasping the meaning of it. Of course I'm quite enjoying discovering what my personal definition will be eventually. What I do know for certain is that its the most wonderful yet vulnerable place to be. It feels like nothing else in comparison in such a good way. Its difficult to equate into words what it means to voluntarily open myself to mentally to giving up control complete to someone.      Who knew that feeling so vulnerable would be even remotely a good thing? I certainly didn't since I practically go out of my way to avoid being in such a position on a daily basis. My fierce avoidance of talking in front of a class whenever possible because I'm wondering what they're thinking about when I'm speaking (if it's my words or me they're criticizing). Not saying the complete story when things become horrible in fear of judgement and